Introspection

Trying to understand yourself can be such a tiresome job. Adding to the pressure of analyzing why you do something the way you do, you also have to confront yourself. That’s the time when you realize what a mess of a person you are!! N wonder “Am I like this?” “Have I changed or have I been like this all while?”
Most times I do this so called “Introspection”, when I feel something amiss, rather when I feel things are not happening the way I want. I do this, like all others, because deep down I feel that I am not doing it right. Sometimes I understand what I did wrong, and sometimes I veer away from trying to understand. I just know I wanted to do it.
What I thought I do less and should do more is to do the same when things go right. I need to know what I did right. I need to know what I said that made the difference. I need to know how it clicked. Lastly, I need to know if I can be that self again!