Monday, November 28, 2011
Can I?
Sometimes I am amazed by the power of stories. They give me those precious few moments of inspiration and encouragement wherein I feel the urge to fight it out with the whole world for my dreams. But then the night goes by and boom!! Rise and shine! And I am back to my same old self. :) How I wish I can retain that urge in me! Can I?
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Introspection
Trying to understand yourself can be such a tiresome job. Adding to the pressure of analyzing why you do something the way you do, you also have to confront yourself. That’s the time when you realize what a mess of a person you are!! N wonder “Am I like this?” “Have I changed or have I been like this all while?”
Most times I do this so called “Introspection”, when I feel something amiss, rather when I feel things are not happening the way I want. I do this, like all others, because deep down I feel that I am not doing it right. Sometimes I understand what I did wrong, and sometimes I veer away from trying to understand. I just know I wanted to do it.
What I thought I do less and should do more is to do the same when things go right. I need to know what I did right. I need to know what I said that made the difference. I need to know how it clicked. Lastly, I need to know if I can be that self again!
Most times I do this so called “Introspection”, when I feel something amiss, rather when I feel things are not happening the way I want. I do this, like all others, because deep down I feel that I am not doing it right. Sometimes I understand what I did wrong, and sometimes I veer away from trying to understand. I just know I wanted to do it.
What I thought I do less and should do more is to do the same when things go right. I need to know what I did right. I need to know what I said that made the difference. I need to know how it clicked. Lastly, I need to know if I can be that self again!
Friday, January 14, 2011
Friday, November 26, 2010
Views on 'Guzaarish' the 'depressing' movie
This is a writeup by Professor Dr. Ketna L Mehta, the Associate Dean Research of our college:-
The positives of the movie is that the film craft and direction is spectacular and flawless, the actors are more than convincing and this is the first movie on a spinal injured- a quadriplegic in Indian cinema. The images are real and flawless – the accident, topple from the bed, helplessness at the leaking roof, feeling the fresh air outdoors and many other such images.
A film is both a potent tool for transforming mindsets and can sometimes also don the role of weapons of mass destruction. We need the best in the industry to project and showcase more responsible cinema.
As a person with spinal injury and as the founder of our NGO, Nina Foundation I would not recommend this movie to my friends with spinal injury. I will elaborate this rationale:
1. Its a non- Indian take. The biggest motivating factor for a traumatic spinal injured is his ring of FAMILY. The entire family rallies around and forms a ring of support both physical and emotional. The independent living concept shown in the movie with Ethan living with only caretakers and caregivers is remote. More than one member of the family takes charge and enables one to sail through life happily.
2. We have glowing examples of Indian quadriplegics living with this life transforming disability for more than 12 years (the number in the movie). Maj HP S Ahluwalia, Rajendra Johar, Sruti Mohapatra, Subramaniam, Arvind Prabhoo, Nishant Khade, Abdulla and I can go on. They have families, friends and successful careers and goals and are leading successful lives.
3. Disability is a ‘untouchable’ ‘invisible’ taboo concept in India. The movie with its ending propagates this very concept. That a human being and his wishes are above the law? A disabled is better off ending his life? Obstacles and problems should taint our view about life? Spinal injury is too big a problem to live with?
4. Our NGO is attempting to create interest, involvement and inspiration amongst friends with spinal injury. Believe me its an uphill task. It takes hours and years to convince how to overcome our daily problems and yet lead a life of happiness and dignity. Guzaarish’s depressing tone nullifies that in three hours. Despite being financially independent (Ethan has written a book, has a radio show), he wants to end his life.
5. India is the capital of people with spinal injury, over 15 lacs and we add 20,000 every year. Most are ‘invisible’ as they are tucked away at home struggling to manage each day. How many can afford a 10 lac sip and puff wheelchair or tilt table in our country. The reason for being depressed is that there are no rehabilitation centres offering holistic services to face life. The rehabilitation at physical, psychological, social, vocational, recreational and spiritual levels prepare us to conduct our lives and also achieve a lot personally, professionally and in sports. (there is wheelchair tennis, basketball, quad rugby, swimming etc)
6. Alongwith the helplessness of rain falling on ethan’s face- there could have been more instances of enjoying the ‘fly on the nose’ moments. Spinal injury is a ‘real’ tough issue. Its not easy either living with paraplegia or quadriplegia. Yet it is hope which makes us rewrite medical books, push our limits, surprise our doctors and therapists. All the stakeholders work towards giving spunk back to our spines and this is a huge healthcare force. They too are disappointed by the treatment of the subject and ending of the movie.
7. And finally, Mr Bhansali, we don’t need euthanasia or suicides to end our lives in India. Poor management of bed sores, urine infections, bowel complications, osteoporosis, high cost of ventilators and medication, lack of trained attendants and caregivers and lack of world class rehabilitation centres anyway do the job, unfailingly. Even today in Bollywood land, Mumbai, we don’t have a world class spinal injury rehabilitation centre.
Charity is very easy, sponsoring a few spinal injured is simpler but getting involved with interest and inspiring our friends with spinal injury is the need of the hour. Imagine our children and young friends with spinal injury watching the movie with their devoted parents and families. The fact is that the very talented Mr Bhansali makes convincing movies on different aspects of disability; we would like positive role models conveying inspiring messages to face that one more day of our lives!
Dr Ms Ketna Mehta is founder of NGO Nina Foundation (www.ninafoundaiton.org)
The positives of the movie is that the film craft and direction is spectacular and flawless, the actors are more than convincing and this is the first movie on a spinal injured- a quadriplegic in Indian cinema. The images are real and flawless – the accident, topple from the bed, helplessness at the leaking roof, feeling the fresh air outdoors and many other such images.
A film is both a potent tool for transforming mindsets and can sometimes also don the role of weapons of mass destruction. We need the best in the industry to project and showcase more responsible cinema.
As a person with spinal injury and as the founder of our NGO, Nina Foundation I would not recommend this movie to my friends with spinal injury. I will elaborate this rationale:
1. Its a non- Indian take. The biggest motivating factor for a traumatic spinal injured is his ring of FAMILY. The entire family rallies around and forms a ring of support both physical and emotional. The independent living concept shown in the movie with Ethan living with only caretakers and caregivers is remote. More than one member of the family takes charge and enables one to sail through life happily.
2. We have glowing examples of Indian quadriplegics living with this life transforming disability for more than 12 years (the number in the movie). Maj HP S Ahluwalia, Rajendra Johar, Sruti Mohapatra, Subramaniam, Arvind Prabhoo, Nishant Khade, Abdulla and I can go on. They have families, friends and successful careers and goals and are leading successful lives.
3. Disability is a ‘untouchable’ ‘invisible’ taboo concept in India. The movie with its ending propagates this very concept. That a human being and his wishes are above the law? A disabled is better off ending his life? Obstacles and problems should taint our view about life? Spinal injury is too big a problem to live with?
4. Our NGO is attempting to create interest, involvement and inspiration amongst friends with spinal injury. Believe me its an uphill task. It takes hours and years to convince how to overcome our daily problems and yet lead a life of happiness and dignity. Guzaarish’s depressing tone nullifies that in three hours. Despite being financially independent (Ethan has written a book, has a radio show), he wants to end his life.
5. India is the capital of people with spinal injury, over 15 lacs and we add 20,000 every year. Most are ‘invisible’ as they are tucked away at home struggling to manage each day. How many can afford a 10 lac sip and puff wheelchair or tilt table in our country. The reason for being depressed is that there are no rehabilitation centres offering holistic services to face life. The rehabilitation at physical, psychological, social, vocational, recreational and spiritual levels prepare us to conduct our lives and also achieve a lot personally, professionally and in sports. (there is wheelchair tennis, basketball, quad rugby, swimming etc)
6. Alongwith the helplessness of rain falling on ethan’s face- there could have been more instances of enjoying the ‘fly on the nose’ moments. Spinal injury is a ‘real’ tough issue. Its not easy either living with paraplegia or quadriplegia. Yet it is hope which makes us rewrite medical books, push our limits, surprise our doctors and therapists. All the stakeholders work towards giving spunk back to our spines and this is a huge healthcare force. They too are disappointed by the treatment of the subject and ending of the movie.
7. And finally, Mr Bhansali, we don’t need euthanasia or suicides to end our lives in India. Poor management of bed sores, urine infections, bowel complications, osteoporosis, high cost of ventilators and medication, lack of trained attendants and caregivers and lack of world class rehabilitation centres anyway do the job, unfailingly. Even today in Bollywood land, Mumbai, we don’t have a world class spinal injury rehabilitation centre.
Charity is very easy, sponsoring a few spinal injured is simpler but getting involved with interest and inspiring our friends with spinal injury is the need of the hour. Imagine our children and young friends with spinal injury watching the movie with their devoted parents and families. The fact is that the very talented Mr Bhansali makes convincing movies on different aspects of disability; we would like positive role models conveying inspiring messages to face that one more day of our lives!
Dr Ms Ketna Mehta is founder of NGO Nina Foundation (www.ninafoundaiton.org)
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Random thoughts
I just finished watching ‘Social Network’. Interesting piece of work, if it’s a true story entirely then even more interesting. It’s not very common that you find people so dedicated or passionate about something that they do some breakthrough interesting piece of work in it.
You can be passionate and still chose to do nothing about. Yes it is a choice.
"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life - well, valuable, but small - and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void."
I love these line from the movie ‘You’ve got mail’. Actually it induces this feeling in me which scares me. Thankfully, I have learnt to ignore it.
If I look back a few years in my life, I know there were things I was passionate about. Things I chose not to do anything about due to various reasons. I told myself I can always come back to those things later and that if I am really into them it will happen on its own. But maybe, I was wrong.
Today I am in a city , away from all the things and all the people that really inspires me and gives me the courage to go on. In a place where I am trying to be passionate about the things in front of me. I just don’t like doing things because I have to. So I am trying to find the right reasons for it. I hope I do.
You can be passionate and still chose to do nothing about. Yes it is a choice.
"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life - well, valuable, but small - and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void."
I love these line from the movie ‘You’ve got mail’. Actually it induces this feeling in me which scares me. Thankfully, I have learnt to ignore it.
If I look back a few years in my life, I know there were things I was passionate about. Things I chose not to do anything about due to various reasons. I told myself I can always come back to those things later and that if I am really into them it will happen on its own. But maybe, I was wrong.
Today I am in a city , away from all the things and all the people that really inspires me and gives me the courage to go on. In a place where I am trying to be passionate about the things in front of me. I just don’t like doing things because I have to. So I am trying to find the right reasons for it. I hope I do.
Friday, October 8, 2010
I really don't wanna put a title for this one ;)
I thought i just arrived and now i am done with my first sem!! Mumbai is a fast city! ;) I am yet to feel connected to this city but then again I know I take time for things, i don't like to rush it.:)
Each city has it's own flavor. I loved Bangalore for its cool laid back feeling. Loved it even more for the wonderful friends i got from there. And even more for the wonderful moments i had there.:) I don't wanna comment on Mumbai now because its too early and i wanna explore more here. But yea it is a fast city and the mad mba run of mine is adding to it. Everyone is always on the move. Always busy or at least trying to look busy.
Whenever i meet someone here and say i am from Kerala, they will be like "oh wow god's own country. I have heard it's very beautiful." And yea of course i feel proud. :) But I often find people very ignorant about the places and states in their own country. Esp the knowledge of some North Indians (Not alone) about South India. I think at times they think all South Indians belong to chennai or tamil nadu. Like the other day in college someone said 'Happy pongal' to me and i was like 'huh?'. Even after repeating then that I am from Kerala, the person gave me a blank look. :D Trust me, i find it very irritating (like any one else) but then they are stupid and frogs in their own well. Everyone loves their city or town or village they come from even if others may think its the worst place to be. Like Mumbaikars have this strong love for the city, which people coming into the city first time may not understand. But doesn't mean you don't respect it.
Recently,one of my friend's had put up a status saying I hate mumbai and she went on to abuse the busy trains and dirty roads here. Hmmm it was pretty clear that she missed home and was feeling lonely and wanted company. I felt it had nothing to do with Mumbai. We feel connected to a city when we connect with the people in the city.
Like I said every place/city has it's own flavor, you have to wait for your turn to taste it.
Each city has it's own flavor. I loved Bangalore for its cool laid back feeling. Loved it even more for the wonderful friends i got from there. And even more for the wonderful moments i had there.:) I don't wanna comment on Mumbai now because its too early and i wanna explore more here. But yea it is a fast city and the mad mba run of mine is adding to it. Everyone is always on the move. Always busy or at least trying to look busy.
Whenever i meet someone here and say i am from Kerala, they will be like "oh wow god's own country. I have heard it's very beautiful." And yea of course i feel proud. :) But I often find people very ignorant about the places and states in their own country. Esp the knowledge of some North Indians (Not alone) about South India. I think at times they think all South Indians belong to chennai or tamil nadu. Like the other day in college someone said 'Happy pongal' to me and i was like 'huh?'. Even after repeating then that I am from Kerala, the person gave me a blank look. :D Trust me, i find it very irritating (like any one else) but then they are stupid and frogs in their own well. Everyone loves their city or town or village they come from even if others may think its the worst place to be. Like Mumbaikars have this strong love for the city, which people coming into the city first time may not understand. But doesn't mean you don't respect it.
Recently,one of my friend's had put up a status saying I hate mumbai and she went on to abuse the busy trains and dirty roads here. Hmmm it was pretty clear that she missed home and was feeling lonely and wanted company. I felt it had nothing to do with Mumbai. We feel connected to a city when we connect with the people in the city.
Like I said every place/city has it's own flavor, you have to wait for your turn to taste it.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Udaan!!!
Haven't opened my blog after moving out from bangalore. :) There were so many things to write about after i came to mumbai, but i was never in the mood. Thought will post the poems from the movie 'Udaan' which i found beautiful :)
Chhoti-chhoti chhitrayi yaadein
Bichhi hui hain lamhon ki lawn par.
Nange pair unpar chalte-chalte
Itni door chale aaye
Ki ab bhool gaye hain –
Joote kahan utaare the.
Aedi komal thi, jab aaye the.
Thodi si naazuk hai abhi bhi.
Aur nazuk hi rahegi
In khatti-meethi yaadon ki shararat
Jab tak inhe gudgudati rahe.
Sach, bhool gaye hain
Ki joote kahan utaare the.
Par lagta hai,
Ab unki zaroorat nahin.
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Jo lehron se aage nazar dekh paati toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon,
Wo aawaz tumko bhi jo bhed jaati toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon.
Zid ka tumhare jo parda sarakta toh khidkiyon se aage bhi tum dekh paate,
Aankhon se aadaton ki jo palken hatate toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon.
Meri tarah khud par hota zara bharosa toh kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate,
Rang meri aankhon ka baant-te zara sa toh kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate,
Nasha aasmaan ka jo choomta tumhe bhi, hasraten tumhari naya janm paatin,
Khud doosre janam mein meri udaan chhoone kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate.
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Chhoti-chhoti chhitrayi yaadein
Bichhi hui hain lamhon ki lawn par.
Nange pair unpar chalte-chalte
Itni door chale aaye
Ki ab bhool gaye hain –
Joote kahan utaare the.
Aedi komal thi, jab aaye the.
Thodi si naazuk hai abhi bhi.
Aur nazuk hi rahegi
In khatti-meethi yaadon ki shararat
Jab tak inhe gudgudati rahe.
Sach, bhool gaye hain
Ki joote kahan utaare the.
Par lagta hai,
Ab unki zaroorat nahin.
_____________________________________________
Jo lehron se aage nazar dekh paati toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon,
Wo aawaz tumko bhi jo bhed jaati toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon.
Zid ka tumhare jo parda sarakta toh khidkiyon se aage bhi tum dekh paate,
Aankhon se aadaton ki jo palken hatate toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon.
Meri tarah khud par hota zara bharosa toh kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate,
Rang meri aankhon ka baant-te zara sa toh kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate,
Nasha aasmaan ka jo choomta tumhe bhi, hasraten tumhari naya janm paatin,
Khud doosre janam mein meri udaan chhoone kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate.
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